
I bid you all farewell; dipping to the void....
The purpose of ones existence is a mystery that each individual embarks on from the moment of birth until that person is returned to the earth and becomes one with the life force. Life is nothing but trials and tribulations as one journeys through their time on this earth while forging friendships and enemies. Constant barriers and obstacles, some built by ourselves while others are thrown up by our adversaries, prevent us from vibrating with every soul on earth and beyond. I am tired of such things....
In this world of corruption, disease, pollution, over-population, and just hatred through and through, I am no longer going to partake in this bullshyt. I have been burned too many times by people I onced held close to my center. While I know the cause of most of these fall outs, I still have a few that elude me. I find it disheartening that a relationship which was once a strong bond can be severed and never amended. Why would such a condition exist? Why cannot these people overcome their feelings and find common ground to forge the bond once more? Did I not call you brother once? We are all from the same source of energy. We all return to the same source. Do we not share the the same being? I feel sorrow for those who cannot come together and amend the wounds once created by weak minds. I feel sorrow for the people who have hatred in their blood and cannot see past their own self to forge a peace and alliance with another person. Fuck! People always say that they are "chyll" and "cool" but everyone has demons that corrupt them. Fight your battle. Fight your darkness. Fight your mind. Gain control of your being and shine eternal light. Dont be weak. Dont be scared. Dont be oppressed by the negative. You are an energy source with your own nuclear center. You are in the drivers seat of your life. You can conquer your mind, body, heart, soul, being and then blast darkness to the void. It all starts with saying, "I am in control of myself. Negativity, darkness, chemicals, do not control my mind or your being. I do. I control myself. I will conquer. I will shine." Dont not succumb and allow your being to become the passenger to someone else or something's control.I am tired...
I no longer will play your games...
All the people who burned me know how to reach me...
All the people who I haven't met can also reach me...I bid you farewell; dipping to the void...
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Because you showed me
A sunset overflowing
But who cares where its going
As long as you're next to me
I always check this blog and this page and its messages will continue to change so if anyone cares, I will be updating from time to time. Just not traditionally blogging anymore on tumblr under this account. No more dashbboard reblogs. Only updating this page. I will most likely be changing this page once a week on Sundays or when some other event occurred in which I need to reflect on. Also, if you are still reading this, then I thank you. You have tolerated me to this position on this page which means you still gave me a piece of your time in your life. So why not get involved? Why not message me? Why not interact as we are all humans? Everyone zen and vibing together. I belive my ask is still opened so lets vibe. By the way, with this format I created, if I do reblog, you can only see them if you are following me.
No Anger; No Resentment
One of my best qualities is that anger is something I never hold on to and let fester within my being. With a blink of an eye, an exhale of a breathe, negativity is expulsed, hatred is gone, grudges forgotten. To each their own though. People tend to feel that it is easier to allow anger inside; that they only can deserve the negative feelings and their minds become conditions to this feeling as "this is life" and dont break the mold. It's an unfortunate reality for most people which I wish I could help break.
My worst quality is caring too much. I feel broken inside when others are broken, experiencing hardships, being supressed, not living their lives they way they need, going through some life shyt. I create this strong attachment to those people because I relate so well with them and have been through that experience time and time again in my life. I have come out on the other side though. The only thing yet to conquer is living life to the fullest. I am trapped right now in the tide of society. With that said, I understand people a lot more than the average person and everyone has a place in my heart. Even if I feel that person has wronged me and let me for dead, I always want that person back because nothing is unamendable. Everyone deserves a place in my life. I never forgive though. To forgive is hold blame. I dont blame. People do things because whatever their rationale for their actions are, they deemed it necessary for themselves to take that course of action to preserve their life. Again, to each their own. Bottom line I attach to any human being, regardless of who they are and what they do or how they live their life. I want everyone to be apart of my life because they all have something to offer and I never leave even through their darkest time.
Worst feeling in the world: having something drastic occur and not knowing why it happened. I dont care, well truthfully I do, if someone peaces out because they need to for their own reasons. I just cant deal with knowing where I, or the situation if it was a group thing, went wrong. How am I supposed to grow if I dont know the failure. This has happened over and over again in my life. People just peacing out. My pops did it when I was 4 years old. Buddies and other family members did as well. I have had falling outs where people do a 180 and next day they are no longer in communication. Sucks but what can I do. All good though, I guess
The reason I closed this blog is not because of one person. It is because of multiple people who sort of 180'ed on me and they all knew I posted personal shyt through this blog as well as I would communicate through here as well. For instance, on a sub-blog, my "buddy" and I was always talking about shyt regarding astral projection and the metaphysics. But, I have closed down the main blog and sub blogs because they no longer wish to be contacted or communicated with so I am dipping altogether. Without going into detail as no one has asked me, multiple life issues have occurred, people have died, people have become stubborn to the issue, people lost the ability to care. Simply put, as a result of these deaths, people have shown true character flaws and all those doors came shutting close rapidly so I am moving on. Secretly, I am always still standing at the door waiting for it to be opened again because I was never the one who shut it. I dont peace on them even though they peaced on me. People have a hard time facing reality and their demons.
Sad part, the memories were awesome and I wish they all were back. Unfortunately, the memories and faces, along with the good times and bad, will eventually start drifting away like the picture below; blown into the wind to be lost.